Soul-Drenching Sadness

Tonight I was reading a book that made me cry.

The signs of truly awesome authors are the ones who can pull you emotionally into their story and make you connect with their characters.

I connected.
and I felt bone deep, soul drenching sadness.

For one infinitesimal moment, I became aware of my soul...
and how alone I am in this world.

I know that sounds dramatic.
And heart-wrenching.

But, honestly, it's a good thing.

Because it make me FEEL.

I took the time to evaluate things tonight.
The things that make you feel beyond your norm...that tug on your awareness until you can't ignore their presence any longer...

those are the moments that define us.

I've written a personal mission statement.
I know what I want from life.

I am alone.
I've got a lot to conquer.
but, I'm ok with that.

I need the challenge.

My life is in turmoil now more than it ever has been, honestly,
but I've never felt more sure of my path and my decisions.

I know what I want.

But, I'm taking the moment to feel the grief,
to acknowledge my sadness and regret.

and use these feelings to fuel what I want to do next.


Have you felt REAL with yourself lately?